Loser Players.

(idea do amigo Marlon )

Whisper on my ears things I want to listen, lie to me, say things didn’t got that point and curtain my eyes with blindness for don’t permit I see what’s going on, despise me on the ignorance of my truth but don’t try to justify your deeds with false words you use to say hiding your intentions on the shadows of our trust, who you think you’re fooling? So, simply kill me and let me end my journey of facing this reality I don’t want to believe.

No. I must carry on.

But even so I ’m failing leaving down the world I built for my own because what insists be true, burns my eyes as see it and maybe one trace of sanity still wanders inside my mind then one more nightfall I can feel bad about it and one more dawn for thinking how much I wasted my days on boredom of my old memories. Or that, are your conceptions that got deeper on the abysm of wrong choices at a point that if you look upwards, the top it’s just a little light spot you can’t see.

Such way you contribute to create an aquarium for isolating your rotten society. Rotten society of dead fishes.

Life just goes on the cyclical inertia of living as I had no permissions for changing, what I could touch seemed so far from my hand. Why am I feeling like this? I realize I’m alone in the darkness of hope as I would never reach the end of road. What would I die for at  a world of corruption and hypocrisy? The right moment they say are lost on the beyond, so far than I can get with my imagination, so far than I can reach and all I can face It’s people’s backs getting away and disappearing on the dark horizon of life, and how can anyone think I could made things right?

Dancing demons on the absent of matter inside my head scares me and scream a voice that seems coming from everywhere, gaming with the shadows on my head and dispersing my thoughts on confusion they say I’m the weak and they say that alone I’ll fight until the end at my side, but I know even that’s nothing I can do, still having a little faith. It doesn’t change the fact they’re right.

It doesn’t change the fact even if I don’t give up, I’m still loser player.

(And hoping not to be alone.)